Afraid

... that I love him,
... that he loves me.
... that it can work,
... that it shouldn't.
... that he's serious,
... that i'm joking.
... that it won't work because of me,
... that we'll part, again because of me.
... of what people might think.
... that he can be the best thing in my life,
... that he is already.
... to get in too deep,
... I'm already there.
... there's no explanation for all of this,
... I don't want to explain.
... that i'm afraid of being afraid when I'm already afraid.

{March 11, 2006}